I left class feeling frustrated and disheartened. This started earlier in the afternoon as I was grappling with my own seeming inability to process and boil down assigned reading and dropping the ball on my group and individual work. Later on this frustration turned to the education system in general and my seeming inability to adhere to it's demands both systemic/adminsitrative and academically.

I have continually been frustrated with the education system's almost complete lack of understanding of the role the internet/electronic communications can and will play. The system passes out entire forests worth of paper each day, while more forests are written on in notebooks, only then to be gathered in often closed and isolated document formats. The Web is never going away and we need to jump all the way in, NOW!

I keep asking myself why I find myself in the back of the line to get a teaching credential when I have spent the last 4 years proving my worth and learning how to be a teacher in the classroom! I start doubting that the education system can be changed, especially by someone who can not even play the system's game, because it has to be that change attaches to the existing system. I called it quits after class and went to bed. After a good dose of "glass-is-half-full" from my dear wife, and a good(but short) night sleep, there is no sense in thinking the thoughts I was stuck in last night. Those thoughts end there. Those thoughts give up a chance to change the system. I was taking care of organizing this content management system, and not taking enough time to create content.
Actually, for me it is not going to be enough to take time to create content, I will have to force myself.And even then I might not get everything done on time, but if I make it a point to organize the content I need to, it will get done eventually, even if it costs me some GPA. What's important here is that I focus on "teaching" the assignments, not trying to perform to get a grade. I need to be focusing on the importance of the content as I see it, not how I think the teacher sees it's importance.